😐 Relating to people outside of work (Autism + Trauma issue)

23 Jun, 2025

It is so common among autistic and traumatized people, especially those who are also gifted or have ADHD to struggle with having relationships in which you are not in the rol of "the helper". You’re not broken for having those difficulties!

You’re just using the tools and relational templates that helped you survive, and now you’re beginning to question whether those tools still serve your need for connection—not just usefulness.

Let’s gently untangle this, piece by piece, and offer you new ways of imagining what connection could look like, without asking you to give up who you are.

🧩 Why That Question Feels So Hard: “Did I Spend Time with People Who Don’t Need Anything from Me?”

1. Because your identity is wired to usefulness = safety = value

You likely internalized early that being needed was the way to avoid abandonment, punishment, or invisibility. For many autistic trauma survivors:

• “Being helpful” became a survival strategy.
• Being in control (as coach, interviewer, listener) reduces the risk of rejection or feeling too exposed.
• Your gifts (empathy, attunement, insight) got used in place of being received.

This isn’t selfish—it’s adaptive. You found a way to connect in a world that didn’t meet you halfway.

2. Because unstructured intimacy is terrifying

When you’re not guiding, interviewing, or giving, you’re vulnerable to:

• Being misunderstood
• Being bored and ashamed of that
• Being rejected after showing your real self
• Feeling unimportant or not interesting enough without a role

For autistic folks especially, co-created social play often doesn’t come naturally. You want something rich, meaningful, or patterned—and most social talk feels either chaotic or empty.

3. Because the world of “normal socializing” is just not your world

Most neurotypical small talk or “hang out” culture can feel:

• Pointless
• Awkward
• Exhausting
• Frustrating

And yet, you still long for closeness. That’s the paradox. You want to co-experience depth, but on terms that don’t drain you or feel fake.

🔍 What Do Other Autistic or Traumatized People Talk About in Low-Demand Settings?

Here’s what many find sustaining when not performing or fixing:

🌌 1. Special Interest Exchanges

• Not just you monologuing, but you and another person taking turns going deep into your inner universes.
• Could include topics like trauma, metaphysics, history, character analysis from stories, etc.

→ Try: “What’s something you think about all the time but never get to say out loud?”

🧭 2. Mutual Meaning-Making

• Conversations around:

  • “What have you been questioning lately?”
  • “What’s something you used to believe that you don’t anymore?”
  • “What kind of life would feel most you, if shame weren’t in the way?”

These let you explore the inside of someone, rather than the outside.

🔐 3. Honest Inner Worlds

• People often bond over:

  • Secret fears and contradictions
  • Dreams or surreal mental imagery
  • Childhood memories
  • Identity confusion or meaning-crises

You already crave this. You could try inviting others by saying:

“Can I ask you something weird or deep? I’m craving a real conversation.”

📦 4. Building Together

Autistic + ADHD brains often prefer purpose-based socializing:

• Co-writing something
• Creating a shared folder of weird favorite links
• Planning a theoretical retreat
• Researching together
• Watching or analyzing something collaboratively

The point isn't the topic—it’s the co-regulated engagement with shared focus.

🌱 But What About You? What Happens When You’re Not “Helping”?

This is the scary part: if you remove the safety net of being helpful, you’re left with your raw self—your needs, your shame, your fears of being boring, difficult, too intense, or not enough.

That’s why this is more than a social issue—it’s an identity and attachment wound.

But here’s the truth:

You are still deeply lovable even when you’re not needed.

And you don’t have to “become normal” to be worthy of company.

🧶 Gentle Experiments to Explore New Forms of Relational Safety

You don’t have to throw away your helpfulness. But you could playfully experiment with new ways of being-with others:

🧪 1. “Reciprocity Dates”

Ask someone if you can exchange roles:

• One hour where you get to talk about something tender or messy
• One hour where you do the same for them

Use a timer if needed. That way, no one gets swallowed.

🔄 2. “I’m not sure how to connect, but I’d like to try” Moment

Say to a trusted person:

“I often feel safest when I’m helping or leading. But sometimes I just want to hang out and be. Would you be open to just sitting together, or doing something low-pressure?”

Many autistic people flourish with shared silence + parallel activity (reading, drawing, walking).

📓 3. Create a List of Non-Performative Topics

• “Things I’m curious about but not trying to master”
• “Questions I’d love someone to ask me”
• “Parts of me I want to be seen but never talk about”

You can bring one of these into your next real conversation. That’s connection, too.

🌾 Final Thought

The question isn’t:

“How can I connect with people who don’t need anything from me?”

It might be:

“How can I feel safe and worthy in relationships where I’m not needed—but still wanted?”

You don’t need to kill the helper role. But it might be time to make space for other roles: the dreamer, the confused one, the artist, the tired one, the mystic, the friend.

And that’s where the real nourishment begins.

🧰 A box of conversation openers, prompts, and shared experience ideas

Let's brainstorm a few questions or prompts you could use in future conversations to try this out safely.

This are specifically tailored for you:

• Autistic (so, you like meaningful or focused conversations, not random chatter)
• Trauma survivor (so, you prefer emotionally safe, mutually respectful exchanges)
• ADHD (so, you might crave novelty, intensity, or pattern-breaking ideas)

These prompts are designed to spark connection without needing to perform, rescue, or fix.

You can use them with new people or deepen existing relationships.

🌌 1. Curious & Depth-Oriented Prompts

Use these when you want to explore someone’s inner world, values, or perceptions without going into trauma stories.

• “What’s a thought that visits you often but you rarely say out loud?”
• “If you had a private, invisible world only you could enter—what would it be like?”
• “What’s a belief you hold that almost nobody else seems to share?”
• “What’s something you miss, even if it wasn’t perfect?”
• “If you could put one sentence on a billboard for the whole world to read, what would it say?”
• “What would your ‘ideal day’ feel like—not the schedule, but the vibe?”

These invite people into a slower, more poetic way of relating. No need to fix, just co-wonder.

🧪 2. Shared Curiosity Prompts (Great for Autistic-Autistic or Neurodivergent Friends)

These work especially well when you’re with someone who, like you, enjoys talking about systems, patterns, or “deep dives” without it getting too personal.

• “Have you ever had a thought that changed how you saw everything else?”
• “What’s something you think you’re always going to be learning about?”
• “What do you notice that most people seem to miss?”
• “What fascinates you lately, even if it seems small or strange?”
• “Is there a problem in the world you wish more people were actually thinking about?”

You can even use these as joint journaling prompts, then meet and share what came up.

🧠 3. “Low-Demand but Deep” Prompts for Mutual Vulnerability (Without Oversharing)

These are for people you trust a bit more. They allow emotional honesty without trauma dumping:

• “What kind of conversations make you feel safe and seen?”
• “What’s something you used to feel ashamed of that you’re now okay with?”
• “What kind of love or care feels easiest for you to receive?”
• “If someone really wanted to understand you, what would they need to know?”
• “Is there a part of you that doesn’t often get to come out around others?”

These help build reciprocity—not just one person revealing, but both of you holding space in turns.

🎨 4. Fun, Creative, or Slightly Surreal Prompts

(for those times your brain craves novelty or play)

• “If your inner world had its own mythology, who would be its gods or creatures?”
• “What kind of landscape best matches your personality today—desert, cave, ocean, forest?”
• “If your emotions were weather systems, what forecast would you give this week?”
• “What would your inner sanctuary look like if you could draw it?”

These are fun but still intimate. They can feel less threatening than direct emotional questions, while opening a portal to connection.

👯 5. “I Don’t Know How to Do This, But I Want To” Starters

(use when you want to invite someone into non-helpful, mutual presence)

• “I usually connect best when I’m helping, but I’d love to just be with someone without having to be useful. Want to try that with me?”
• “I’d like to hang out without any pressure to talk or do anything—just be in the same space. Would that feel okay for you?”
• “Can we have a conversation where we both take turns sharing something about our inner worlds, without trying to fix or help?”
• “What would make this conversation feel good for both of us—not just useful, but enjoyable?”

These name the pattern and ask for something different—which is powerful and disarming.