🥰 SLAA - Step 2
Step 2: "Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity."
🌿 What Step 2 Means to Me
I used to try to fix everything myself — using my own strategies, control, and intelligence. But it didn’t work. I came into SLAA exhausted, in pain, and willing to try a new way. Over time, I’ve come to believe that there is a Power greater than myself, and that this Power — whom I call God — can help me find peace, healing, and sanity.
This Power isn’t harsh, punishing, or demanding. He is kind. He has a plan for me that is aimed at growing my character, healing my heart, and freeing me from the pressure I’ve lived under for so long.
“God’s power is perfected in our weakness.” That means I don’t have to white-knuckle my way through life anymore. I can stop trying to perform or overachieve just to be safe or loved. I can let God gently guide me toward the next right thing — even when I don’t know what the whole plan looks like.
🌱 What “a Power greater than myself” means to me
- I believe in getting help and guidance, not carrying it all on my own.
- I’ve experienced real change when I let go of control and allow others — and God — to support me.
- My Higher Power is loving and wise, not cruel or distant. He teaches through love, not punishment.
Even though I have a strong ego around intelligence and self-reliance, I’m learning that God’s wisdom is more trustworthy than my anxiety-driven plans.
🔍 My Past Relationship to Faith and Trust
Before SLAA, I had no real connection to faith or trust. I relied only on myself — and it led me into addiction, heartbreak, and despair. My sponsor has helped mentor me in Christianity, and I now have other spiritual friends I can talk to about deeper truths.
Faith is now something I experience, not just something I try to “believe in.” I’ve seen real results: more peace, better decisions, more grounding, less chaos.
💡 What Sanity Means to Me
Sanity means:
- Having a realistic, healthy view of life
- Seeing myself and others without distortion or fantasy
- Accepting that people are imperfect, and so am I
- Living from values, not impulses
- Finding peace with making mistakes, being human, and still showing up
- Releasing the toxic expectations of a narcissistic culture that says I must be flawless, powerful, and impressive to be worthy
True sanity is interconnectedness — not being merged with one person, and not isolated either, but surrounded by good-enough people who help me return to truth when I lose perspective.
📚 Additional reflections from this step:
- When I surrender control and let God guide, life becomes lighter and more aligned.
- My fears still show up (like being asked to stay single, or failing God’s plan), but I’m learning they don’t define me.
- God’s guidance feels like clarity, not confusion, and leads to freedom, not fear.
I am not doing this alone anymore.
God is restoring my mind and heart — slowly, gently, and with deep love.